Tuesday, March 27, 2012
So I bought this book over a month ago. And kept finding excuses not to read it. And then I decided that I would read it this week. So last week you would have thought that since I was going to start reading a book about excess that I would start cutting back and even purging. Nope the opposite. I'm an idiot. A slow learner. A sinner.
Instead I bought 4 large frames, birthday gifts (for kids who already have way too much), 6 yards of fabric ( I already have a hundred stockpiled in the basement), two large ferns, 3 milk glass vases from an antique store, 4 hyacinths, and numerous other items I have already forgotten about. Ridiculous.
And of course everything was justified. It was on sale. It was cute. Just what I was looking for. It would hide the wet dog and dirty soccer socks smell in my house. On and on. And two days later it hit me. Totally gross. I was gearing up for the next few months of living with less. I was in full panic mode. I'm an addict. Just like every other red blooded American. I love to get new stuff or new to me old stuff. I like my house to be pretty, my kids to look cute, and to be in style. That last one is questionable actually. But you know what I mean. So today I started returning stuff. I came up with $130 of stuff to take back that was not already opened, eaten, or used. Talk about disgusting. All because of the insecurity of knowing I am going to be convicted. Which meant the Holy Spirit was already convicting.
I am on the third month in the book. And I am ready to get out the garbage bags and fill them up.
She talks about how spending every dollar as if you are helping the needy and furthering the kingdom. A literal "love your neighbor". We shall see. Am I changeable? I think that is my biggest fear. I will read this and not want to change. Not want to see how much I am missing out by giving up and blessing someone else.
I will update when the book is done. And what if any changes have occurred. I know that only God's presence can "fill up" the void that Americans attempt to fill up with consumerism. And I include the majority of the American Christians in this category.