Have issues with your post-baby body.
Don't have Christmas spirit.
Snap at your husband.
Walk around in a generally bad mood.
Yell at the kids.
Want to hide in bed with the covers over my head.
Grumble, Grumble, Grumble.
That's been me the last couple of weeks. The kids aren't sleeping well at night, traveling, eating crappy food, fighting during homeschooling, laundry piled high......
aye aye aye.
Just those kinds of days. I know it won't last. It's gonna change soon. But right now it's a little frustrating because I want to fix it.
I think it's ultimately because the spirit is working in me and part of me is fighting it. Shane and I have been contemplating downsizing and moving to a farm, purging our possessions, and living a simpler life. And it totally appeals to me. But the thought completely stresses me out and overwhelms me. Not because I don't think it's a good idea, but because I hate how attached to things I am. So I think for some reason this inward struggle is making me short tempered and stressed out. I had to even put the book Radical away for a little bit because I was feeling so completely freaked out by it.
I don't know ultimately what we are suppose to do as a family, but I know that I need to relax and have peace with whatever that is.... and for heaven sakes....find that Christmas spirit.
Obviously the devil is more concerned with those who follow Him than don't. What a perfect time to attack when life is a little crazy...
We all have our days / weeks / MONTHS! Hang in there Meg, you are an amazing wife /mother / sister/ daughter/ friend ...
Scott's cousin Tami totally did the down sizing - Moving from a mini mansion in Alexandra, VA to a cozy cottage on Isle of Palms. Not necessarily a farm - but really prioritized the importance of things. Getting back to Mother Earth and the simpler things (best) things in life.
Whenever your journey takes you - God will bless it. Try to go with the flow and not stress (coming from someone who really can't do that herself). We love you guys!!
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